again...

the feeling comes again...
next monday i will meet my baby...
im so nervous...
hope my baby is okay, happy and healthy..

*skg dah mula faham perasaan seorang ibu.. yg terlalu risau pasal anaknye..
now i feel guilty cz dlu i tought my mom terlalu risau and terlalu mengongkong...
i totally can understand how exactly she feel..

mom

last nite i couldnt sleep.. asik teringat kan my mom.. bukan duk berjauhan pun dengan dia.. tu dia ade kat depan hall tu tgh tgk tv... ntah kenape somehow rase sedih sgt... terkenang segale jase2 dia terhadap for me selame ni.. i admit that we always have different opinion when we discuss bout anything.. tu yg buatkan we not so close... tapi bile pk pk balik i cant take this as a reason not to be close with her.. after all she is my mom.. the one and only... i couldnt imagine my life without her... so it make me realize yang mase yg tinggal for me utk balas jase dia tak byk.. maybe esok lusa she's gone or maybe it's me who leave the world 1st before her... suddenly i feel so scared.. kalo di ingat2 apelah sgt yg aku dh buat pun utk balas sume jase dia.. a gift on her birthday, mother's day and hari raya.. is it enuf? do i make her happy? i dunno if there is anything i had done that might hurt her.. but the thing is now im so scared kalo tak sempat nak balas jasa dia.. i hope i can use all the time left for us the best i can to make her happy... i love u mom...

--during my nikah dah.. we can see clearly her love is so deep to me.. cant you?--

This week's activity

--from www.babycenter.com-- 21 week pregnant

Take off your rings.

You'd be surprised how many pregnant women need to have their rings cut off by a professional jeweler because their fingers have swollen up around them. If yours are feeling the least bit snug, do yourself a favor and take them off now before it's too late. If you can't bear to be separated from your wedding band or another important ring, loop it on a chain and wear it close to your heart.

*mine still muat lagik.. (sebenarnye dulu cincin ni longgar sket.. =P and sib baik gelang bleh adjust... so no problem lah...)

--flashback: six months married--

when crmd_order down...

i have nothing to do...
tak biase lak tade keje.. nak berceting pun tak biase dah..
ermmm sllunye bile up i alwes pray that the system down for one whole day coz dh tak larat nk buat keje.. ni bile dah down.. mati kutu lak tak tau nk buat ape.. sbb sebenarnye keje byk nehhhhh...

well that's the reason why i write this entry.. =P

we went to bangsar village.. ??

jarang sebenarnye me n hubby nak jalan2 kat kl.. kalo nk deting kt kl pun mesti bersebab.. coz we both tak suke sgt tmpt yg crowded.. nak shopping pun carik time yg cun cun.. nk tgk wayang pun mesti weekdays.. weekend lagi suke lepak kt umah or pegi kedai mamak or somewhere yg tak crowded sgt..

but arini jalan teramat la jem merangkak-rangkak.. so we dont want to waste our time kat jalan.. waste our gas.. (since now mahal gile minyak...) and we dun want to get tense n tired just bcz of it.. so we change our direction to bangsar.. tapenah2 la pulak nk melepak kt bangsar..

we have our sweet time eat our dinner.. then freely go shopping (not me.. him and his toys!) and paling best we bought buku nama for our baby.. sebenarnye it has been quite long time looking for the book that contains name yg kitorg suke.. but most of the time jumpe mesti tak complete.. satu name tu ade satu name lagi tu tade.... so last nite since we so free.. ape lagi menghadap la kitab buku name tu.. then ade satu buku ni complete dgn name2 yg kitrog suke.... so happy sgt sgt! so skg ni.. mcm dah confirm la name tu for our baby.. =) now on mommy can start call bb dgn name tu.. (heheh padahal dr dulu dh start dah.. =P)

balik tu sungguh la penat.. jalan lagi tak ingt dunia.. seperti biase.. mlm2 nak tido mula la cramp sane sini.. lenguh sane sini.. cian my hubby kene jadi mesin osim.. =p tenkiu darling!!! appreciate sgt ur care.. big muahsss for you!

he's a boy!

we went to 'see' our baby today.. amboishhh.. mase tgh scan tu.. punye la relek mamat tu.. siap silang kaki lagik tu.. tgn dia letak pulak kt dahi.. cewahhhh.. sungguh la bersantai dia.. tp kejap je la pastu mula la buat acara menendang-nendang tergolek-golek.. smpi pening doc nk carik dia buat measurement.. padan la asik rase perut aku ni vibrate.. punye la tareti duk diam dia kt dlm tuhhh.. and paling best.. dah nampak dah boy dia tu.. tp kocik lagik.. next month doc kompom balik.. tapi kalo ikut2 kan mmg rase boy pun.. tgk la perubahan mommy dia ni.. main ps2, pakai jersey.. tgk bola.. selebet je pun pegi opis.. tade rase nk melaram pun.. makan pun sempoi-sempoi.. burger.. nasik goreng.. roti canai.. paling fav makan daging.. ice-cream tu dh memang wajib...haihh cemane la tak dumok kan.. makannnn je keje.. kejap2 je mesti nk makan...

tak sabarnye nk tunggu next month cz insyaAllah bleh surekan boy ke tak.. heheh then bleh la start2 nk carik nama.. tapi sebenarnye dh ade dah satu name ni cume nk surekan lagi maksudnye.. dr dulu pun dh start panggil dah bb ngn name tu.. rase cm serasi pulak. heheh..pastu baru bleh pegi shopping.. yippe!

macam macam perasaan...

being preggie ni tak semudah yang di sangka kan.. sakit sakit badan tu biasela.. tak sedap badan lagi.. tapi yg paling tak best ni part part melibatkan perasaan.. tapi bukan la over sensitif.. buleh lagi nk kawal perasaan.. (hehe.. tapi yang ni tak leh nk kompom sgt.. kene tanye bie..bia dia yg ckp..)

nak kasik contohnye kt sini.. dulu lepas scan last month rase teruja sgt.. excited and happy sgt tgk bb dh developed sket2.. then tak sabar nk tunggu next month punye scan.. sebulan tunggu punye tunggu smpila today.. then suddenly i feel tak best.. rase risau sgt nk scan esok.. is my bb ok? dia develop btul ke as expected.. cukup ke nutrien dia.. mcm2 mende pk dlm kepale ni.. bila dia mula tak tendang.. mula risau je.. tido ke sakit ke.. tak cukup zat ke.. paling takot dpt bad news esok.. huhu.. (mintak dijauhkan la.. ) rase jantung ni lajuuuu sgt..

haihhh.. sudahnye.. tak lena nk tido.. hope everything is ok tomoro... tawakal to Allah..