geram geram mummy geram~

heee~ sape dia ni..
kuis kuis perut mummy..
rase nk gigit gigit je kaki comey tu.. =P

on my 35th week pregnancy...

ish.. pelikla.. sebab sakit sgt la pulak kt bhgn bwh perut tu.. baby dah turun ke eh time nie? confuse lah.. and tambah pelik movement baby makin ligat.. ngilu btul bile tulang dia kene kt rusuk kanan ni.. bile tanye2 orang lain.. diorg kate normal la tu.. dah tade space so baby gerak sket pun mmg sng nk rase.. so lega la sket perasaan ni.. bukan ape kalo bleh biala baby dah 38th week baru bersalin.. tambah lagi skg ni perut terase padat and ketat sgt... nak duduk cemane lagi pun tak tau dah... bleh rase tulang2 baby gerak sane sini.. kdg2 kesian la kot kot my baby tak selesa kat dlm tu.. ish aku pun rase sume serba tak kene.. tapi ape pun kene la bersabar kan.. tinggal lebih kurang sebulan je lagik.. sebenarnye me and hubby pun tak sabar nk jumpe baby.. brg2 sume dah siap.. bilik pun dah siapkan utk sambut baby... tp biala kalo bleh nak la kan badan my baby dah kuat and sihat baru dia kua.. tak smpi ati rasenye kalo my baby kua awal tp kene letak dlm inkubator.. mintak dijauhkan la.. aminnn~

ermm this week jugak i have to admit yg memang tak larat sgt dah nk berjalan or bergerak.. kalo pakse2 jugak buat keje umah.. mengemas etc etc mmgla sakit pinggang sakit kaki sakit lutut.. yg kesian tu kat my hubby bie la.. kene la jadi mesin osim urut2 smpi lega.. sib baik jugak skg ni sume dh siap dah tade ape lagi nk buat kecuali basuh baju tiap2 minggu je.. tu pun mesin yg buat.. =P bab menyidai skg dh bleh count on bie.. sungguh la appreciate bile dia tlg sidai kan baju.. tak larat dah saye nk bongkok2 sidai baju.. berdiri lame pun tak tahan jugak...

lagi satu lately ni terase begitu emosi sekali... especially time tgh have fun with bie.. bukan nye jarang have fun ngn dia.. tiap2 ari mmg cmtu... 24 jam sentiase bergurau-gurau.. tgk tv, makan jalan2, sume hepi hepi.. tapi time tgh gelak2 tu.. mesti terdetik.. what if kalo im not survive mase bersalin nanti.. im going to miss him.. mase mase cmni lah buat aku cukup syukur sgt dgn life aku... dpt hidup yg tenang dan hepi di samping hubby aku.. tapi terdetik jugak cukup ke love aku utk dia selame ni sbg seorg isteri? ade ke salah silap aku yg buat bie kecik ati? kdg2 jugak aku rase cm bersalah jugak sebab merajuk mende2 kecik.. tak tau la kenape.. maybe aku asik fikir what if mase aku tinggal sket je lagi... ish sebernarnye taleh di layan sgt perasaan cmni kan.. mau sakit jiwa dibuatnye..

taperlah.. sebagai umat islam.. sume nye kite serahkan kepada Allah.. hope sumenye selamat dan berjalan lancar... aminnn~

no work..

serious la.. boring jugak sebenarnye duk lepak tade keje kt opis.. tapi kalo amponnnn la kalo nk suh aku tegur teamlead psiko tu.. taperla kalo pk positive nye.. less pressure bebanan kt kepala aku... orang dah kasik relek kite relekla kan.. all these while pun rase dh terlalu byk effort and commitment dh bg for this project. (eventho dia tak appreciate pun kan...)

if he think i will feel guilty sebab releks tak buat keje.. silap la.. if he want to assign me work silekan.. tapi nak harap aku bgn mintak keje mmg tak dpt la.. enuf la ape yg dia buat selame ni.. mls aku nk bertegur sape ngn org cm ni..

well i have to enjoy my sweet time preggie ni.. tak lame dah.. tinggal 34 days je lagik.. baik fikir mende yg best best je.. so senang ati sket.. sian jugak kat my baby yg selame ni tensen je melayan si mamat tu.. now on i will not let him do anything yg pressure me lagik.. enuf is enuf la.. kalo selame ni dia ingt dia je bleh nk ngamuk meh tgk skg ni bia dia tgk pulak pompuan pregnant mengamuk.. heheeh.. try la carik pasal sekali lagi.. mmg mengaummmmm aku kt opis ni nnt.. (amcam? takot tak? =P)

8 months...

my hands and legs are all swelling... and it really hurts when i walk or move my hands... and i also have a back pain... last nite when i was about to sleep i cant even move my body... seriously any single move will make me scream... i have to wake my hubby up.. so he can massage my back... tiger balm do calm me at least for a few minutes... now i start to understand susah payah seorang ibu mengandungkan anaknye.. terase insaf jugak lah... before this rase tadela susah sgt.. sakit2 sket, pening pale, skt pale.. lenguh sane sini sume tu bleh di tahan.. but last nite mmg la teramat perit... suma jadi tak kene... tmbh lagi cramp and kebas... but i tried my best to handle the pain... coz i dont want to feel give up or lemah semangat.. i dont want my baby know the pain that i have gone thru...

tapi kan.. yang pelik nye kan... usually when i was about to sleep time ni la he will do the jaws things ( kua kan tulang and jalan2 like jaws... =P) and busy kicking me... tapi last nite.. he just keep quite smpi i feel a bit worry bout him.. i just put my hand on top of my belly and hoping he was ok.. but then he respon back but only with soft movement... so good boy la him.. tau kot mummy dia sakit.. =)

tapi guess what... this morning when i told my hubby bout him... dia pun mulalah acara jaws n kick dia tu non-stop... smpi la time mkn breakfast.. heee.. apela bb ni.. baru je mummy puji dah noty balik.. taperla somehow his kick buat me terase sungguh semangat.. kalo ikut kan mmg tak larat nak bgn gi keje ni... tapi tu la kan kalo MC nnt ade org kate MIA pulak... mls la nk pjg2 citer.. sabar jelah...

terase nak pg ikea balik ni... larat ke eh nk jalan?

pembelit!

Tuhan tu Maha Kaya...

today i found out that my teamlead ade buat citer tak elok pasal aku...
when i was sick last week, he told onshore team i was MIA...
missing in action?
bukan aku tak inform dia aku mc...
memang carik pasal btul la dia ni...
haihhh sabo jela kan..

~sesungguhnya memfitnah lebih bahaya dr membunuh~

biala Allah je yg balas sume ape yg tak elok dia buat kat aku...

i win!

nak tergelak pun ade.. lupe nak citer ni.. kan semalam my teamlead tu re-assign my work to someone else.. sbb kononnye i lah yg lembap, slow, bengap etc etc smpi keje tu taleh nak siap.. so tadi dia pergila tnye updet kat the guy yg handle keje aku ni.. he is sitting next to me je pun.. so i bleh dgr conversation diorg...

i am so happy when the guy telling him that he got the same error as i did and stuck there the same place that i did stuck too.. and also there is a problem with the data as well.. so he conclude he cant proceed this either.. kah kah kah.. (gelak jahat ni.. )terkulat2 jugak muke dia bile that guy ckp cmtu.. konon la dtg kt mamat tu tunjuk yg dia concern psl anak2 buah dia.. and sume task2 yg dia bg.. end up mamat tu ckp cmtu.. padan muke.. and i think he was hoping that the guy cakap problem tu solved.. so terbukti la aku lah yg tareti buat keje sebenarnye.. tp lain la pulak jadinye.. keh keh keh... org dh ckp awal2 ade problem tamo caye.. now setel la sendiri.. good luck man!

still sit down and ceting

dont have nothing to do..
and also dunno what to do..
the MAN didnt assign me any work yet..
i will not go to him request for any work request..

so i decided to sit down and think... chatting... =P
~LALALALALALALA~

welcome ~LIL~

heee last nite when i was about to sleep... i received a text from my friend Mas. Heee guess what.. Mas dah selamat bersalin baby boy... nickname dia ~lil~.. name penuh mama dia tak declare lagik... huhuh.. ntah kenape me sungguh terharu... smpi bergenang2 air mate malam tu.. yelah kan i used to be with mas everyday in office throughout our pregnancy... skg ni dia dh selamat bersalin and my turn will be next month ~ insyaAllah... my hubby lak dr kol 9 tadi dah tido.. penat sgt la tu.. rase cam nk kejut je dia btau good news ni tapi tak smpi ati la pulak.. so dok tergolek-golek tersengih-sengih la aku sorg smpi ke pagi... duk imagine cemane la mas go thru the labour pain, wondering cemane la muke bb dia..

esok subuh2 tu i told my hubby this good news... heee so we decided to visit her after office hour... wahhhh~ sungguh chumel la baby dia.. putih gebu.. tembamm~ bibir merah.. mas he's so adorable la...~ muke innocent je... (heheh bukan mmg muke bb innocent ke hehehe...) smpi ke arini still aku terbayang muke baby dia..

then balik tu.. heading to bangsar village... heee nk buang tabiat sket.. teringin nk order nando's half chicken... gatai tak? ntah hape-hape je kan.. =P pastu terus jadi ular sawe tak larat bgn.. hohoho tobat dah pasni mkn 1/4 je lah.. saje je gatai.. before this mmg mkn 1/4 pun.. tu pun liat nk abih.. tp kire ok gak aku berjaya menelan half chicken tu smpi abih... hohhoho besau btul perut.. =P

balik tu mmg berat sungguh mate.. bb aku pun agaknye overdose ngn ayam nando's tu.. buat pertama kalinye aku tido seawal pukul 1... sllu kol 4 baru bleh lelap.. huhuh... puas tido~

confirmed.. he is totally crap teamlead!

he personally talk to me one to one... cakap mcm dia jelah yg btul.. turn the story upside down to prove la yg i yg ade attituted problem.. i lah yg tak take work seriously... apelagi.. i cant handle issue lah.. sumela i.. salah sendiri sume tak nampak... bosan tul cakap ngn org cmni.. totally buang mase.. so i decided to ok ok je lah.. puas ati la tu? biarlah kan.. org yg suke menang.. org yg ego.. tak gune ckp byk2..

he blame me bcz i have one critical issue.. high priority... but then i cant proceed with the work sebab functional cons punye guide salah and data pun ade problem.. so cemane nk test? i had email them this problem and i already told him the problem.. tapi biasela bukan nak paham or nak understand.. tau nye GOD! GOD! takpun 'DEMN! DEMN!'. .pastu tak kirela ape pun.. nak jugak2 issue to solve... mrhlah functional.. dh pending kt dirog... apesal lak nak mrh aku.. hishhh..

and nak jadi cerite.. i was mc on thursday... seriously tak sehat.. tak larat nak keje.. what do him expect? i am 8 months pregnant... org tak pregnant pun bleh mc sakit demam.. lagila me yg tgh sarat2 ni.. buleh dia ckp "i was expecting to see u on thurs tp u mc.. then the next day, u mc lagi..u can just tell me on thurs yg u taleh dtg on fri.. so i can re-assign thw work to someone else..." ape ke punye ayat tu? manela aku nk tau aku nak sakit ari jumaat tu? sorryla i am normal human being.. psl mase depan mmg aku tak tau.. Allah je tau.. kalo itu yg dia expect dari aku sorryla.. that is beyond my power... kalo aku bleh nk predict mase depan baik aku tgk bile date bb aku lahir or mase depan aku cemane sebenarnye..

then dia bleh ckp aku menyusahkan HR and boss aku.. haikkkk apesal lak? bukan aku tak inform dia aku nk mc.. kalo HR tak tau itu maknenye dialah yg tak report kt HR. then dia siap sindir aku ckp this will affect bonus aku or performance aku time review.. cet! taula dia yg akan bg review tu.. so ingt aku heran? haihhh.. sukati la kalo nak buat cerite pasal aku.. yg penting Tuhan tau mane betul mane tak.. bonus ke ape ke sume ni hal dunia je.. rezeki sume Allah dh tetapkan.. bukan nye bergantung sgt kt feedback dia.. siap dia bleh sound aku.. "next time, u can alwes tell me if i cant deliver the work.. i can assign u keje yg sng.." hohoho aku la pulak nak kene buat cmtu.. konon since dia phm la situation aku.. kalo dia phm kenape tak dia je yg assign keje yg sng utk aku.. bukan tak tau aku dh sarat pregnant.. aku bukan la jenis org yg mula2 dh give-up.. nak tau keje tu sng ke susah ke kene la try buat dulu.. takkan awal2 nak ckp "sorry i cant accept this task.. susah.. since im pregnant i nak keje senang je.." tak ke hampes je bunyinye.. bunyi org mls nk cuba.. tak responsible.. org yg tau bg alasan je.. aku bukan type cmtu.. sorry again... ntah2 kalo aku ckp cmtu.. dia gune balik point tu citer kt boss aku betape la aku ni teruk gile.. bg keje tamo amik.. taula kan org cmni.. asik carik point je nk kate org salah...

his final word dia cakap keje aku sume dia dah pass kt org lain.. elehhh mcm la byk sgt keje aku pun.. tinggal satu tu je pun... issue2 lain tu pun patut dah close.. siap dh QA both side onshore & offshore.. so salah aku ke kalo ade issue lain lagi? kalo btul aku punye program salah.. apesal pass QA? tu pun tak leh fikir ke.. sabo jelah.. and he want me to sit down and think about my mistake and decide if i want to improve or not... hapeeeee niii.. takkan aku nk sit down n menyesal aku mc 2 ari tu.. ??? ish tade kejelah! ok ok i sit down but im not going to thnik bout my mistake.. i dont think i did any mistake.. so i will sit down n ceting.. heheheh..

so i waste all my day sit and ceting.. he know i dont have any work but yet my hand busy typing and i make lotsa noise pressing my keyboard.. hahahah.. mesti bengkek je dia.. haa pegila ngadu kt bos.. ckpla aku tak amik seriyes nasihat dia.. tak heran lah! =P

air selusuh

memandangkan mase semakin hampir.. jadinye sudah tiba mase utk menyediakan air selusuh... thanks to Jaz yg bagi link ni.. for reference.. mase gi kelas antenatal kt pusrawi dulu, ade jugak reference... tak sure la same ke tak.. nnt cek balik... ok to sape2 yg nk buat air selusuh.. bleh amik note dr sini.. ~

pertamanya niatkan ikhlas kerana Allah dan berdoa agar dipermudahkan bersalin
1) membaca surah al fatihah dan selawat ke atas nabi
2) membaca ayat 54-56 surah al a'raf sebanyak 3 kali
3) membaca ayat pertama surah at-tariq sebanyak 3 kali
4) membaca ayat kursi sebanyak 3 kali
5) membaca permulaan surah qalam sebanyak 17 kali, nun pada permulaan surah dikatakan membawa makna nasir (penolong) dan nur (cahaya)
6) membaca bahagian terakhir ayat 104 surah yusuf sebanyak 17 kali
7) membaca surah mu`awwizatain (surah al-falaq dan surah an-nas) sebanyak 3 kali
8)membaca doa nabi yunus dalam perut ikan nun dalam ayat 87 surah anbiya' sebanyak 17 kali
9) akhir sekali baca "ya fattah bila miftah iftah lana bihurmati ummi musa bint lawi bin ya'kub salawatullahi taala 'alaihim ajma'in wa bihurmati buduhi" sebanyak 17 kali

selamat mencuba.. mudah-mudahan Allah memudahkan semuanye... aminnn~

again.. when critical issue assigned to me...

seperti biaselah...
kene hentam kene bambu...
bosan tul la keje cmni..
dh le tade sape nak refer...
haihhh...~
honestly... give up la cmni... =(

4d scan

today gi buat 4d scan my baby... nmpk la pipi tembam mamat tu.. tp this time hero aku ni majuk kot.. sbbnye i didnt eat anything since morning... main cak cak lak dia.. huhu tertekan sungguh aku.. dia tunjuk muke tp bile doc nak snap dia tutup muke dia.. hohhoo... sllu nye bukan main lagi tunjuk2 idung, nganga-nganga mulut.. adoiiila.. penat dah pujuk2 dia.. tp dia still cover muke dia ngn tgn time doc nk snap.. haihhh tade rezeki la nk tgk muke putera impian ni...

terkilan sungguh... dahle mahal.. rm180 tu utk scan saje.. taperla.. maybe baby nak buat suprise kot kt mummy eh.. saje tanak kasik mummy tgk muke baby awal2... tp still puas ati jugak coz babah managed amik video and dlm video tu mummy nampak la muke baby.. hehehe.. debab! patut baru 33week tp size dah mcm 35 week.. hohoho.. amponnnnn~ tak kisah la.. janji baby sehat, kuat... and paling penting senang nak kua ok..



malam tu ade bbq at my house.. makan tak ingt dunia.. layannnnnnn~

Ada cerita tentang kita...

Ada cerita tentang aku dan dia

Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala

Ada cerita tentang masa yg indah

Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

*huhu.. tersyahdu dgr lagu ni... i think bout no one but my baby... but seriously i am really enjoy my sweet time being preggie.. i feel so close to my baby... caye tak.. smpi bergenang airmata think bout him... plus he responds to me... busy kicking me... memang rase syahdu sgt... sob sob sob... yg pelik nye bile abih dgr lagu ni... he stop kick me.. i thnik he really knows and understand me... love u baby!

masih ade geram...

Still not in the mood to be at home.
sbb kes smlm tu lah!

sebok!

I really dont like kind of people yang suke carik point nak blame other people. Bende yang tak salah pun jadi salah. Nak lawan rase cam buang mase je nak layan org cam ni. Yelah korg je la yg btul.. ok puas ati?
*sigh.. pagi pagi dah put me on pressure. sian la kt my baby.. tensen keje lagi.. and this stupid crap issue lagi.. sorry baby.. mummy rase guilty sgt coz i know somehow u feel the pressure too..

However, I feel better after a long talk with bie just now. Im so lucky as he really understand me and support me. I know that i made a right decision - married to him. So i dont care about others. All i know i am more than happy be with him and with him i can be more than myself.
Thanks sayang! you such wonderful hubby! i love you so much.. 3 hours talking to him mmg la amat menenangkan perasaan...

*to that person yg create this issue, thanks a lot for what you have done. I will not do anything for revenge. It's not my style. and i dont have even single second nak layan this crap issue... seriously. But i just want to let u know that u didnt get anything by doing this to me. it will not effect me at all. i will still do what i like to do and i dont bother to behave as what you want me too... is it ok with you? but then i cant wait to see your next move... sila lah buat lagi... tak heran punn... ngeh ngeh ngeh...

nak cotiii~

it's public holiday. but im in the office - working.
*sigh

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sebab company aku sukati je drag cuti yg patutnye 1-2 may jadik 30april-1may...