agree...

Stress is not always a bad thing -- in fact, it can bring out the best in you.

i'll take it positive.

muhksin

went to watch mukhsin @ sunway pyramid... ermmm... chumel gak cite dia.. hehe.. consider i puji la filem ni... it shows byk reality in our life and byk jugak moral of the story... the best part is when to see how orked's parents tersangat la romantik... so loving... hope mine same gak smpi forever ever sentiase sweet cm diorg... hikhiki.. im so glad and thankful coz i have such a wonderful, caring and loving hubby... eventho dia tak dukung me mcm si mak orked tu... hikhik... maybe after i deliver our baby i will demand for that.. skg taleh la kot.. since my body dah macam pooh... =P

after watched the movie ingt nk play bowling.. (huhu.. not me..) bie and his fren tapi they turn up a bit late so cancel.. balik rumah mulala penat... tadi jalan tak hengat... syok sgt window shopping for baby... haihhh.. tak sabar nk tunggu 7 bulan... orang tua2 kate tak elok beli brg baby awal2... kenape eh? ermm ikut jela kan.. diorg kan lagi byk mkn garam... sedar tak sedar i am now almost 6 months pregnant... another 1 month before i can shopping... and another 3 months before i will have my own baby... insyaAllah...

voice out

again... my teamlead never want to use his ear to listen and his brain to think... which make me sick of him... i already declare a war with him (for almost 2 week i didnt talk to him... just an email or ym to communicate.. afterall it is useless to inform him anything.. he will never get it even one point.. except he know that i have a problem to close the issue.. demn!)
today i decided to talk to him because of the issue that onshore raised to me. i dont think it has anything to do with my program. my program run well and i thnik the functional misunderstood somewhere expecting something that is not covered on my program. and also i thnik it is a config issue again which spoil all the system. not my program at all.

i tried to talk to my team lead.. and as usual he will agree with all functional issue and blame me 100%. (even he has no idea what my devlopmnt do or what the crap issue the functional raised). i tried to explain but he keep bomb me with his harsh word without listening to my explaination.
this is it. i had enuff. it is totally useless to talk to people like him. such a waste.
a few minutes later, he email me.. "the test script says you should change in the header level of the doc". of course i did that. i had pass all the unit test cases and my program had been QA-ed by both onshore and offshore. so what's the problem here man??? if you dont understand the issue please la jangan nak tunjuk bagus.. meluat sgt. bukan sekali dua.. dah tak larat dah kot nak tgk kepoyoan kamu tu. but i wonder how come he be so stupid. it's not the issue. im talking bout other thing and he reply me about other thing. omg! im so speechless. i tought i tell him everything bout the problem but yet he's talking bout non-related issue. somehow i feel like laughing. ape ke la bengap sgt team lead aku sorg ni... aisehhhh...

so i decided discussing with my onshore functional - Paul. i purposely speak louder just to attract my teamlead attention to prove that i have nothing to do with the problem raised by the functional there. Luckily Paul on my side and he confirm that onshore must be misunderstood somewhere. Then i refer to another senior cons. and again they understand the issue and confirm that im doing the right thing. i know dia curik curik dengar my discussion. tau pun termalu.. orang cakap tamo dgr.. ade hati lak tu nk tunjuk terror... mmg padan muke.
after that seperti biase la when all people agree with me, he will pretend he understand the issue and he is on my side la.. baru nak sedar onshore tu yg salah.. but it's too late beb! i made my decision.. i cant take this anymore. working under people like this. so i wrote and email to my development manager telling her everything bout his attitude and request to roll-off from this project asap. i dont care if management dont understand or will report back to him. but at least i had inform them this attitude and they should know that i hate to work with him.

now i feel so relief. somehow i admit it's good to voice out ur rite. i dont care if this will affect my career or not. (coz i dont know managment trust siapa.. me or him) but at least they know i work with brainless teamlead.

the end.

note to my baby: baby, this is not good example ok.dont use such a harsh word like what 'that guy' said to mummy and some of the word yg mummy tulih kat sini eh.. i know u can understand everything yg mummy rase and face kt ofis ni.. rite honey?

i miss...

1 now 1 nescafe...

but i can't..

btw... ini taleh di kire mengidam ke? tak minum kang nnt abih air liur bb meleleh je nanti =P...

muahauhu sure bie reject je alasan ni... any other valid reason so i can drink this legally?

the only thing that makes me feels like vommit

Mayonnaise

bluwekkk... (+_+)
terbayang pun taleh... apatah lagi ternampak...
ngeeee...

apesal ek?

habit during pregnant...

1. eat late nite.. 1am-2am.. kellog's snowflakes or burger will do..
2. play sudoku on my phone.. no matter where i am.. if i got a chance i surely play it... and it become my must-do activity before i sleep.. my baby likes it.. keep kicking me! cayalah baby! somtimes i pruposely play it just to wake my baby up... kijam tak? =P
3. sleep with more than 4 pillows around me.. i guess i need maternity pillow but it;s quite expensive lah!
4. lil bit decrease in shopping habit... (ye ke? maybe not gal's stuff like handbag, sandals, clothes (i cant fit!).. but maternity clothes and unnecessary things still on like before...eg: i bought 2 bedsheets, 2 pillows, 2 novels yesterday... looking for new handbag and sandal and clothes.. but couldnt find one..*sigh!.. but im thinking to go alpha angle this evening.. i hope i can get something nice!)
5. every morning i will stand in front of my mirror, proudly staring at my belly at least 10 minutes..(i admit.. it look a bit like pooh.. =P)
6. ice cream is a must have dessert everyday! (no wonder i put so much on my weight.. i have excuse what, haven't i? =))
7. daily supplement: obimin & neurogain & milk...
8. watch football.. im with arsenal coz my hubby ask me to sokong arsenal and hate MU.. i kan very supportive wife.. *wink!

my lil hero now 23 week in my belly

www.babycenter.com
This Week's Activity:
Write a letter to your baby. You and your child will treasure this gift for years to come. Go with your heart and follow your inspiration. If you need help getting started:
• Describe your feelings for your baby and what it's like to know he's growing inside you.
• Imagine a perfect day with your baby and what you'll do together.
• Write down your hopes, dreams, and wishes for your baby.
• Think about what being a mother means to you and your definition of what makes a good mother.

--ermmm bile eh nk buat homework ni..?--

i hate my team lead

i guess everyone knows that preggie woman will need to do their check up once in a month.. and but the thing is my teamlead pretend not to understand this... (eventho he already got 3 kids)...

last 2 months i apply leave early 2 weeks for my appointment, and he never sign my leave form.. it really makes me doubt whether he approve or not... i hate being confuse bout this small matter and he keep make me wondering til the day i m off.. he never sign the form and i just assume he approve it...coz no matter waht i still need to go for my check-up...)

so the next month i decided inform him last minute thru email.. (actually applying thru email is legal in my office, so means no need for him to sign the form...) but then he so angry and cc the email to my boss saying he want to sign the form before let me off that day.. demn! but then i just ignore the email... and my boss seems to approve my leave when i submit my timesheet.. so ok lah.. no need for me to beg for his signature..

so this month is decided not to apply leave so i text him saying i am on MC today. i tought it will be ok.. but then he reply me 'AGAIN?'.

what the hell is inside his mind? is he human or what? is it so hard to accept that I AM PREGNANT and i need all these medical check up for my baby??? im sick of his attitude... never meet such a jerk teamlead like him... what make me sad is he is MALAY! fyi, there is only less than 20 malay dude works in my company... i feel more comfortable to work under chinesse.. but waht make me so confuse is if he really don like me why dont he roll me off from this crap project? i am more than happy to move to other project... and i thnik my boss doesnt have any problem to assign me to new proj if i already out from this project..

somehow i feel so guilty to my baby.. since i am always tension and work under pressure in the office.. but deep down inside i thnik he understand me.. rite baby?

anyway, doc had confirmed this morning that my baby is a boy! my hubby so excited to have his junior in another 4 months.. me too.. hehee.. i dont mind boy or gal.. as long as the baby is healthy and perfect and cute (of course.. =P) is enuf for me..

so into this nut-break

i am currently addicted to this choc...
luckily we can get it in KLIA...
but it's quite expensive actually..
but still i bought 4 =P



is it what they called mengidam kah?

workaholic?

im workaholic.. no im not.. but yes sometimes i am.. but not most of the time.. but i think recently i was forced to be workaholic... i dont mind actually but most of the time.. i thnik i can finish my work on time but there are ALWAYS config problem lah, system prob lah and onshore prob lah that caused me to work extra time... i have one good example here.. now i am writing this entry becoz AGAIN.. i repeat AGAIN system is DOWN!

*sigh.. and then another incoming email...

Hi all, this Saturday will be a compulsory working weekend once again since we are lagging behind on UT completion by quite a bit.
--> (almost every week! please ask onshore to fix all the config problem 1st! so we dont need to waste our time debugging crap unit test data... which then cause the system down... )

Please let us know before Thursday only if you absolutely can’t make it.
--> (does it make any different if i told you that i cant make it??? i still have to work rite...)

As before, there will be a good lunch!
--> (i dont care! i can have better lunch out there with my hubby!)

Thanks.
--> (for what?)

not that i didnt want to give a full commitment to my work tapi... dont u see that my belly is getting bigger n bigger... (and of coz my body is getting heavier everyday and it's somtimes quite hard for me to move my body.. everyday i walk slower and slower.. except when i am in shopping complex... *wink! ) and yes, u rite.. dont make pregnant as an excuse.. but dont u ever think and realize how tired we are, work til late; 6 days a week? if you are guy, think bout ur wife ok! and how would you feel if ur wife is spending most of her time to her work, but not you..luckily i have a very understanding hubby.. he so supportive, never complaint bout this..but still, i feel guitly! heee.. i am solehah wife what.... =P btw, i think my baby already master in SAP ABAP... im thinking to submit his cv to headhunter.. can i? =P

*glup!

i am 5 months pregnant...

belly: 26-->34-->36inch
weight: 49-->58-->62kg

besar kan? (*_*) no wonder he call me bini bie pooh... chehhhh~

i like his quote..

"Feel free to be harsh..."
-Paul Edward (a colleague from Axon UK sitting next to me...)


--agaknye dia pun geram ngan onshore pple... maybe not only onshore also the client i guess... all are crap!